Hello Everyone !
I would like to thank everyone for their support of my blog. It is very much appreciated. I have received such nice messages from so many of you. You are all amazing !
I am a very independent, confident person, I am comfortable with my blindness and my life as it is. I will always live my life the way that I want and not let my disability determine how I will live my life.
Now having said that I don’t want people to think this has always been the case. I know how many people feel about their disability. I hated that I was different for many years, I hid my disability and lied to make it sound like I could see better than I could. I just wanted to be “normal” for one day.
For many years I suffered from depression this was something that I also hid and did not want to talk about. I never wanted to admit that I was having a hard time and I was unable to deal with it on my own. I was in a dark place for a long time, I would start to feel better and then my vision would get worse and it would start all over again.
I have worked very hard to get to a good place, making the most out of my situation and just living my life and making that my focus. I have sought help with my depression and have really seen an improvement. I still have down days, I would be a lying if I told you I never had a bad day and was never frustrated with my disability, or how people perceive and treat me. I have just decided to put myself out there and show people that my disability does not define me and I will educate people as long as it takes for them to know that I am “normal” and capable.
The biggest thing for me is that I have made the decisions to stay positive and take control of my life. With my life in my hands I am able to live happily and really succeed and move on with my life.
I wanted to take the time to tell you this because if you are struggling and feel like it is a daunting task to move on from vision loss or whatever your struggling with, don’t feel alone. We all have our struggles, we all grieve our vision loss differently. It is important to know that when you lose some of your vision it is completely normal to grieve that loss. We all must work through it differently and at our own pace.
Knowing that you are not alone can really help you get through your struggles and help you to move on and live life the way you want !
Until Next Time !
Ashley and Rick