As many of you know I lost the remaining vision that I had. This was really hard for me and I felt like I was climbing a mountain. The fear was real, there were days that I felt like I was drowning and didn’t know how I was going to make it to the top of that mountain.
I am definitely not at the top of that mountain, but I am well on my way. I feel like I am settling into this new normal. Finding out what works and what does not. I have had to really work to get to even this point, and I have a lot more work to do.
I have had to work with my orientation and mobility specialist to find new landmarks and make sure that I was comfortable with my routes. And to be honest going through those routes even the ones I know with my O&M helps to build my confidence. And that is the biggest thing that took a hit with my vision loss was my confidence.
I have began to build that confidence back up and feel like I am almost there. I have had amazing support from friends, family and co-workers.
Having Danson to help guide me through these tough times has been a huge help. He makes it so that even though I am not completely confident in myself, I can use his confidence to know that we will get through it. Having to get out and work him so that he gets what he needs was what kept me going, kept me pushing past the things that I was feeling.
Whatever it is that life gives us we have choices to make and I never want something I have no control over to determine how I live my life. No matter how hard it is I will be the one to determine how I live my life. I want my kids to know that they can do whatever they put their minds to and the best way to help them to know that is for them to see me pushing through the hard times and coming out on top of that mountain.
The sun is shining and spring has finally arrived, and Danson and I have big plans.
Until Next Time!
Ashley and Danson